Friday, March 31, 2006

I hope I didn't lose everyone...

But I don't blame you. Who wants to read a quit smoking blog of someone that is still smoking.

I hope to quit again some day, hopefully soon. Right now I'm just getting my life together and things are going very well. I have to be ready, like Peggy said.

I don't think it's good for me to keep trying to quit and putting the patch on, taking it off and then in a couple days trying to quit again. It would be different if I quit cold turkey but I don't think I should use the patch that way.

Good luck everyone and I hope to keep hearing from you.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006


For some reason I can't seem to moderate the comments to delete the unwanted ones. I'm still working on it but in the meantime please ignore the rude comment that someone left.

I changed a setting so I hope it doesn't prevent anyone from posting. Email me if it does.

I'm off to work, I post more later.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

I just can't do it now I guess

I stopped smoking and then my husband and I made plans to meet to go over some things and there I was again...Smoking a cigarette.

It's not him that makes me smoke but the stress of the situation. Things are getting a little easier with us so I'll just have to wait until the time is right and realize that I'm not ready now.

You guys are still doing great though.

Hang in there.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

I'm ready...I think

I smoked my brains out this morning and felt so sick. I have no idea why I smoked so much. I crushed the rest of the pack and I have a patch ready to put on. I don't want to put it on too soon as I must have a lot of nicotine in my system.

I really hope this is it. I'll have to keep myself very busy today and tomorrow.

How is everyone else doing??? I hope you're hanging in there.

My life has settled down a bit and I feel like I can begin to move on and that means doing it smoke free!!!

My son is busy all weekend so I have to whole weekend to do what ever I want. I'm not sure what that is at this time but I could use a little fun is my life. Because I'm quitting smoking it could mean a lot of sleeping.

I'll try and post later tonight to check in and hopefully I haven't run to the store for smokes.

Wish me luck (again).

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Hi Everyone...

I took the last couple days off work and just tried to gather my thoughts. I feel better but I'm still smoking and probably put on a couple pounds.

NOW it's time for me to get off the freakin pitty pot and move on. I have to think that better things are coming, right?

I'm so glad that you guys have hung in there. Posting here is different then on so I'm wondering if some people are having trouble posting. If so, go to the link on the main page and click on the link that says "View My Complete Profile" and send me an email and I can help you.

Now I have to pick a new quit date. I'm not sure of the date yet but I cannot continue smoking.

We all have our difficult times. Divorce, unhappy at work etc. They are all difficult and I'm the only one that completely lost my quit. I'm not going to be hard on myself but I just need to get a grip and get back on the wagon.

Thank you all for you comments and sharing. We can do this and I will keep up on the blog.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Happy Sunday Everyone

As you've probably guessed I haven't quit yet.

In a way Peggy is right but I'm not ready to give into that yet.

My husband and I have decided to go ahead with the divorce. Even though we both know it's right and agree on everything, it's doesn't make it easy of course. He moved back out on Thursday, I spent Friday night and Saturday morning packing his stuff and he moved it out yesterday.

Although it's very traumatic, it'll get easier.

Just like Marilyn, I've had a few good cries but when you know something is right you just know.

We all have our "things" and I try not to get too personal on my blogs but that's what a blog is all about I guess. We have to say how we are feeling.

I have the support of my family even though they are far away. I have the greatest Mother in-law in the world who will always be there for me. If it wasn't for her I don't know how I would have gotten through my Mothers death and many other things in my life this past year. No matter what...We will always be there for each other and be very close.

I am still going to quit smoking!!! Really!!! I have to.

It's 6 AM here as I'm writing this in Massachusetts. I'm still trying to figure out the time stamp problem. I'll try to get that fixed today.

Hang in there everyone. You are doing wonderful.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

I'm back...

My blog on ends on 3/17/06 so I'll be posting here after that.

Please join us in a new, healthy, smoke free Life.